Girlies

Hey . . . I am not mad at anybody but someone new. I love all of my friends like Jessica M and B, Taylor M, Brittany B, and Heather N. Right now the only things that get me mad are liars, posers, and people who ditch people. Well JB . . . I wasn't mad at you I forgave you and forgot everything like a while ago! Well not that long but it has been a while. And I am sorry for making it look like that. See we tried to be your friend and we invited you to church and we invited you to youth and stuff. Do you want to know why I go to church? Well the first thing is to worship, learn, and love the heavenly father. The second is well . . . you know hee hee hee. You shouldn't care about what other people think of you. Just to let you know they don't think about you like that Jess. They are really worried about you and so am I and JM. I know you don't have to go but you have been hanging out with Chris, Clare, Brooke, Brooke and all them lately (not saying anything is wrong with them, I love them well not Chris but you get my point) and I can tell you are worrying about outside instead of inside and I can see things Jess. See little things that add up to big things. I am also worried if we get ok again if you will turn around and do the same things again. Jess I know things, ok I have ways to find out what you say. I know you were talking crap about me. I don't know if you are still but I do know that you were. 1st Corinthians 6, that's funny because I told you to read that before you went out with Devin. LOL! Jess it is really hard for me to say things out loud. Its just really hard for me to get the right words. It took me like a whole 2 hours to right this.LOL Well I just want you to know because online words can be taken out of context. I am not mad like I said at the beginning. LOL I <3>

NEXT TOPIC: TWILIGHT!!!


so Jess i am planning on a complete post for how awesome it was! so Twilight came out like two days ago. I am going tomorrow which is technically today with my sister! I am excited because EDWARD CULLED IS AMA-ZA-ZA-ZING!!! So excited. I read all the books and I hope it doesn't ruin it for me! But I just won't think of it being based on the book. . . . Its just another amazingly amazing movie :D

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So So So I am writing a story and well it deals with my life, but I used other names . . . some from twilight and some from marked. I really love it and I feel much better when I do write. I will be posting the first few chapters on www.fanfiction.net soon! I don't know the title or any of the chapters names yet. I will post it when I put it on the site. Well today is opening day for hunting. I couldn't go and hunt because I don't have my licence yet. Well i am getting a cell phone soon! YESSS!!!! I can't wait, my dad found this awesome one and its blue and omg I love it, but i have to pay for it and its like 179$ jeesh! Well this week I have read the first four books of Marked! They were ok but compared to Twilight they were nothing. But I do like them and unfortunately now i am scared poopyless of ravens and crows . . . they are scary!!! Well I decided to cut my sinful hands off (figuratively speaking). I feel way better too! Weird I thought it would hurt like lemon juice on a paper cut. But it didn't! Well right now i am like idolizing (not really) Brookelle Bones! I love her hair and she is so pretty! Ugg . . . can't wait until my hair grows out and then i am going to get my hair like her!!! yeah . . . . so I am cheer leading and personally i think its gay but oo wells!

LIFE SUCKS!!

When you think of a million knifes stabing your heart, and think of shattering glass cutting you all over your body, and think of a BILLION bees stinging you, every inch of your body in pain . . . . and I will tell you that I think of my best friend betraying me over a guy. That feeling, that pain gets worse and worse every minute, that I realize that I had a chance of happiness, a brief moment in my life of feeling loved and cared for, but in the long hall I realized that a brief moment of joy will bring an eternity of heart ache and lonelyness . . .So I count the hours when i will get over you, if i get over you. . . . will I get over you, . . . . . eventually, will I find someone better, . . . . . . . most definately, will I find that one person that will love me for who I am and never throw me away like a dirty rag, . . . . . . . hopefully, but the real question is will I find another true friend like that ever again?? . . . . . . . . . . . the answer is up to you, and in that case your response would most likely be NEVER! . . . . . . TIP ( what you say and do today could effect your life the next, maybe for the good, but don't forget the bad!)

HuNtEr SaFeTy!

SO I PASSED!!! YEA!! I MISSED ZERO ON MY TEST AND DID AWESOME AT THE RANGE, BUT SUCKED AT CLAY PIGEONS!! LOL

Will She Ever Stop?

So whats going on in your world?? too much stuff in mind! Well I went to a birthday party friday. It was ok until about 9:00! Well there were guys there and one of them i kinda liked and one of the girls there said no flirting no flirting!! and then she invited the guy she liked? How hypocritical is that?? Well i was pissed kinda because the guy she likes was . . . well was important to me and i was over him and she knew that i just got over him she didnt even ask the girl who was having the party! Boy i wish plain and simple was there to help me out! Any way something happened and i dont know what because i was inside sleeping because i didnt want to get involved! Well you thoughts and prayers are very much needed in this situation! Thnks for listening to a teenage terror in trouble! Please comment good or bad, just remember the things you say today could effect you in ten years!

My Calling

So I figured out my calling! Its Art! I love it! Every time I go to class I am excited about what we are doing and what we are learning! SO we are doing a project on an artist, i choose Paul Guigain (sp) you say his last name like go-gan! lol Well I have to do a movie poster about him and one of his pictures . . . and I love art!! When i am creating something I feel happy and powerfull, which sucks because after that awesome high I get I have gay butt band! Grrr Well I also love fashion, the thing is i can create it but not wear it cuz I am fat (no one comment on my fatness) so I can't wait until I move far far far away and paint for a living. I might go to Paris!